Luahan hati anak Adam . . .

Assalamualaikum diary and YOU =)

Rasanya sudah sekian lama kita tak bersua,
Bercerita, berkongsi masalah, dan meluahkan isi hati,
Maafkanlah diri ini, yakni MAFR..

Harini aku rasa sedih, hati seperti terjerut,
Ku tak tahu hendak meluahkan kepada siapa lagi,
Izinkan lah diri ini,
Utk meluahkan apa yg dirasai . . .

Harini aku sedar bahawa JANJI itu juga cumalah sebahagian kata ,
Dapat direbah, boleh juga utk dilupakan ,
Memberi janji mungkin mudah utk dilupakan ,
Tetapi menerima janji . . sampai mati diingati . .

Itu saja yg mampu ku katakan,
Walaupun agak pendek,
Tetapi mempunyai maksud yg cukup bermakna,
Moga Allah menolongku, memberi keberkatan dan kerahmatan kepadaku,
Dan juga kepada sahabat sejatiku, Azy Timmy . . .

Kalau ada sumur diladang, insyaAllah 1 day . . .
Assalamualaikum . . .

4-days diary...

Peace be upon to YOU and lil diary..

5 o'clock in the morning, i wake up early today. Last night I slept at 1o'clock in the morning. YES! 4-5 hours I sleep. I reach my workplace at 7 o'clock in the morning. Nobody here..

In this glorious morning, I would like to wrote some entry on this lil diary...

6-Sept-2012 (Thursday)
You text me at the evening. Saying that you're on the way back here from Dungun, Terengganu. Im so happy that time. But Im wondering why you're coming home, because last 3 weeks you just came back. Is it because you Im telling you bout im going to be warded this Tuesday? I dun know.. Just think positive... Maybe you're HOMESICK? You miss your mum and family, aren't you? :P

7-Sept-12 (Friday)
Today my office organize Eid Open House. I text you and wanna you to join me and family in this event. I thought you're coming... But you didn't come.. You text me saying that you're alone at home and shy to be at this event.. Never mind.. BUT! You're asking me whether Im working or not tomorrow and want to hang out with me and Asyraf. Ok then... Then on midnight, you text and asking me the same question. You said that K.Dila wants have lunch together. I said ok..

8-Sept-12 (Saturday)
TODAY YOU GOING BACK TO DUNGUN! I wake up.. and see my family wasnt at home. They're out because sending my sister back to Shah Alam. Never mind. Mum said that I should spend time and use the time wisely with you. In the afternoon, Im ready and wait you and ur sister patiently. Yeah, lunch together. Im wondering where K.Dila and you gonna bring me.. Where the place we had our lunch? HSC Tower...? I wondering why we're here... Ouh....  K.Dila just want park the car. SOULed OUT? Errkkk.... Ok.. Just follow.. 

Then we heading to Subang Jaya Airport... Yeah, it's time for you to go back.. =(
I see you taking you luggage out from the car. I only can stay in the car and see you wish goodbye with K.Dila.. After that, you knock my window and wave your hand.. I see your sad face.. Luckily, I didnt cry on that time. 

9-Sept-12 (Sunday)
Im in my room without doing anything. Just hang out with my sister and wash the motorcycle. Afternoon, I go to my mum's friend's wedding ceremony.. On the way back, my phone is non stop ringing.. I see you name on the screen.. Im so happy.. At home, I call you back.. I heard you sad voice.. You're crying.. I ask why.. You said, you sleep and when you wake up, you suddenly remember me.. You hear my happy voice. you said you miss me.. You don't want to lose me.. =( 

Dear, don't worry bout me ok? Im gonna be fine.. Insya-ALLAH... dun cry ok? 
Pray for me.. Tomorrow is the day... Focus on your test and studied.. That much important than my sickness.. :) Keep smiling k? 

Till here my entry.. See you on next entry.. I hope so...

Wassalam and Maassalamh...

With lots of love and joy, 
Girls Behind This Blog.. 

I miss my bestfriend :(

Peace be upon to all..

Dear YOU and diary...
I got a lot of thing that i want to tell you... but...
Sometimes, picture substituting our words to express everything in the bottom of our hearts. 

Semalam aku kelukaan, kecewa kehampaan, mencalar ketabahan. Sahabat...  Pimpinlah diriku,  tuk bangkit semula,  meneruskan langkah perjuangan ini.. 

Tips doa untuk yang tersayang dan pasrah dengan takdir-Nya

Assalamualaikum Diari dan sahabat sejati saya, NAMF =)

Hari ini, saya nak share something. Something? Apa benda tu?
Haa tu lah yang saya nak share-kan tu.. Share.. Satu Doa..
Yang boleh kita ambil iktibar, dan muhasabah diri..
Bukan itu sahaja, tetapi yang boleh kita amalkan..
Supaya hidup lebih diberkati dan dirahmati Allah..
Supaya Allah dapat yang terbaik untuk diri kita daripada Allah..
Kerana Allah Pencipta, Dia tahu apa yang terbaik untuk hamba-Nya..
Juga percaya bahawa takdir dan qada' qadar adalah ketentuan-Nya..
so . . . renung-renungkanlah dan hayatinya . . .

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang

Ya Allah…
Seandainya telah Engkau catatkan…
Dia milikku tercipta buatku…
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku…
Titipkanlah kebahagiaan antara kami…
Agar kemesraan itu abadi…

Ya Allah…
Ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengasihani…
Seringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini…
Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi…
Maka jodohkanlah kami…

Tetapi Ya Allah…
Seandainya telah Engkau takdirkan
Dia bukan milikku…
Tenangkanlah diri aku..

Dan juga Jiwa aku..
Periharalah aku dari kekecewaan...
Dan juga kesedihan…

Ya Allah ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengerti…
Berikanlah aku kekuatan…
Untuk menerima ketentuan-Mu...

Dan juga takdir-Mu...

Agar aku dapat redha dan ikhlas menerima segala-galanya...

Ya Allah...

Sesungguhnya pershabatan kami...

Merupakan Persahabatan yang sejati...

Kekalkan persahabatan kami...

Sehingga menuju ke syurga hakiki...

Kerana Ya Allah...

Persahabatan kami...

Bukanlah berlandaskan nafsu dan rupa paras...

Tetapi kerana-Mu Ya Allah..

Ya Allah yang tercinta…
Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdir-Mu…

Sesungguhnya apa yang telah Engkau takdirkan
Adalah yang terbaik untukku…
Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui…
Segala yang terbaik buat hamba-Mu ini…

Ya Allah…
Cukuplah Engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku…
Di dunia dan akhirat…
Dengarkanlah rintihan daripada hamba-Mu yang daif ini…
Jangan Engkau biarkan aku sendirian…
Di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat…
Menjuruskan aku ke arah kamaksiatan dan kemungkaran…

Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman…
Agar aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup…
Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai…
Dan kurniakanlah kepadaku keturunan yang soleh dan solehah…

Ya Allah…
Berikanlah kami kebahagiaan di dunia dan akhirat…
Dan periharalah kami dari azab api Neraka…

Amin…amin…Ya rabbal ‘aalamin.

L.Y.A.B.A dan A.S.A.S
Assalamualaikum 

5 H 20 M :)

Peace be upon to all... 


Dear diary, 
4.53 a.m. i with you. 
I guess my best friend already fallen asleep. 
Yeah, he tired. 


You wanna know something? 
I had 5 hours and 20 minutes on the phone with him. 
Woww..! Isnt it cool and crazy? 


A lot of things we talked actually, 
About our relationship and my health. 
He really concern bout my sickness. 
Praise be to Allah (Alhamdulilah)... 


If you ask me why I love him so much? 
I will answer it simple. 
Lillah...(for sake of ALLAH)... 


Allah give him so that i would have companion in this world. 
He was really a nice person. 
When i fall down, he is the person who try to help me stand back. 
Since he exist my life and be aside of me, I feel something that i cant express it with any single word.
5 hours 20 minute talks, quite long conversation. 
I feel want to talked more, but  never mind. hehehe  :) 

Pity on him, phone credit + bedtime = tired & sleepy. 
Thanks my dear. Appreciate it. 


Good Night and sweetdream.. 
Maasaalamah. L.Y.A.B.A & A.S.A.S

Sincerely, 
Girls Behind This Blog. 

All About Us

Exchange

Assalamualaikum,
Hye blog ! And hye diary !
I'm sorry, because its being a long time I didn't see you,
And I didn't update you.
You know I always busy with my life, with my family especially right ?
Nahh, forget about it.

"Exchange? What do you mean by that?"said diary to me.
Ermm.. Its not exchange actually. But its an agreement.
"what do you mean by that? What agreement?" ask diary again. * =/
Ermm.. actually, azy, she want my email and password for my FB account.
So I ask her why and what she want to do with it?
Then she said, its secret, can't tell me.
On that time, I wondering and wondering . . . Maybe she want to post something, or edit my relationship status ? Hehehe, I smiled and chuckled alone.

Then I said, "Its not fair.. If I give you my password, then you also have to give your password to me. Agree ?
And then we round round and round, finally she gave me her password.. Yeay ! =)

At night, after I came back home from Kuala Selangor with my family, for Ikan Bakar, then I feel like wanted to online my FB. When I open my profile, you know what I saw . . . ?
I saw a status of mine, its wrote about healthy food and diet and also Ikan Bakar, i guess.. *Its more likely to 'perli' me.. Ish3
1st question in my mind . . . Sape punya kerja ni . . . -_____-"
I think I know who.. You know who? Of course my best friend, azy..
"why you said she did that?" ask diary again
Why? Because she is the only person who know my password.

Then I said to myself . . . Ooo she did this . . . So I also want to do the same lah. Not to me, but to her.
So on that night also, I online her FB. Then I saw her sister tag her a photo of her and family at her manager's wedding.
So with a bit of evil in my mind, I update a status on her wall, using her account.

Do you want to know what it is ? You sure really want to know ?

Then, go . . Find her, call her, text her, or meet her . . "then what" ask diary again and again to me.
Then what? Haha . . Ask her lah -.-' so thats all I want to share . . =)

About the status, only me, my best friend ( erm maybe she know ) and Allah S.W.T know about it =)

Okay, its midnight  now, and Im feeling a bit sleepy #.#'
So, I got to go now, I want to sleep ~

Take care diary, and good night . . And see you again . . .

Good bye everyone, and of course to you too my dear best friend . . =)
Assalamualaikum and maassalamah

L.YA.B.A and A.S.A.S

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This "DISTANCE".

Peace be upon to all.. 

Today is my last epistle as a first admin in this blog. I will not post any epistle after this. Soon, i will leave Kuala Lumpur... So, there will be a DISTANCE between me and him. I want you to be strong when im not around. This is last epistle from me... 

I began to understand, this "Distance" is not to punish me... but this "Distance" is to "Keep" me and him... 

I believe 

✿~ with this "DISTANCE", I and he promise to CHANDED be a better than before. 

✿~ With this "DISTANCE", i and he promise to IMPROVE the love towards Creator, ALLAH. 

✿~ With this "DISTANCE", I and he promised to LOVE our Creator more than anything. 

✿~ With this "DISTANCE", I and he promise to study, discover about ISLAM deeper till its roots. 

✿~ With this kind of "DISTANCE", I and he is sire if it was a right time, I and he will be MORE 

WILLING to access all this blessed path. 

p/s : Thanks you, O Allah for giving me this opportunity to get through this way.. thank you for giving this DISTANCE to him and me. 

Syukran alhamdulilah... MAY ALLAH BLESS OUR RELATIONSHIP... 

Take care... A.S.A.S


With loves and peace, 
Girls Behind This Blog. 

SIlence Picture

Peace be upon all..

Morning everyone and YOU!
And of course to you too, my lovely diary.

Today, I won't jot down anything here.
I just want to stick this picture.

Just enough for a picture. I think this picture can replace my word.
Express everything..

Remember yesterday? Almost same, huh? :) 

------ Diary END ------

With Loves and Peace, 
Girls Behind This Blog.

Deep from bottom of my heart.

Peace be upon to all.

Dear diary...
every joyful moment that i had been through with him, i wish i could wrote here.
but unfortunately, i can't...

I appreciate every day, every hours and even every second with him.
I want create unforgettable moment with him before i am destined to go meet The Creator.

Dear diary,
i am counting the day.
The day should i undergo my next treatment.
The orthopedist, nurse, specialist doctor and radiologist were helping me to get my bone scan appointment at General Hospital. <--- ( why is it far way? )
I have to be patient to wait the appointment.

But...
If i am destined to go before all these.
I would like to apologize to all. My family, teachers, friends and also you.
Im not talking nonsense. Just as a preparation.
Coz im afraid if i dont have a chance to do all this.
Almost everyday, almost every time i touch my hair, my hair will fall.
I getting pain everyday... I can said that my life 100% depending on medicine.
Without it, i dont know what gonna happen to me.
Obviously pain will come. urm...

Dear diary,
i want you to accompany me every single time. I need someone to talk.

------ Diary END -----

Sincerely, 

Girls Behind This Blog. 

Diary 19.02.2012

Assalamualaikum and Hello Blog ! and of course to you too, NAMF =)

Yesterday, 19.02.2012@Sunday, 1 history began,

Between He and She, between muzakkar(male) and muannas(female),

Venue at Ampang Point, at the food court,

"Whats happened?" asked blog to me.

U really wnt to know whats happened? said me.

"Betul lah, cepat sikit" said blog to me, but suddenly in Bahasa Melayu

*why suddenly eh? hmmm :/

So,lets begin the story . . .

We(me and my best friend, azy/1st admin), planned to meet.
She wanted to give something to me, and same as me.
So at evening, I went to her house, park the motorcycle, and we walked together to AP( Ampang Point ).

At AP, we walked and walked around first, disturb our friend named Tii at her work place. But azy sad, because 1 of her best friend was not there. Where is she? I think maybe at home. Sleeping? Urm maybe ... hehe.

Then, we sat at the food court. But the weird is, we didnt order anything food except drinks :/ Azy take out her stuff, but me? Only Allah n azy know. hehe.
The best thing is, she gave me present. What it is? It is a keychain. Awww isn't that sweet? haha jk. But I also gave her. Give what? Its not much, just my pendrive. In the pendrive got her videos when she Paragliding last week, and it was her first experience! Thanks to my sister, NAFRM =)

The point I write this epistle is, to say that I had fun and happy today hangout with her. I really appreciate the present from her. Thank you so much dear =) I will keep it safely, and take good care of it, and all the things that u had gave to me. I also want you to keep the video of you at Jugra, Banting. It was your first experience right? And you can show to your family, prove and show to them that you had Paragliding last week. If you miss that time, just play it back at the computer, and keep our memories about "Awan Biru" safely. =)

So I think, thats all I want to say. The clock showing, the time now is 3:01 AM. Waaa, Im so sleepy, because the whole night until now, I at office, accompany my sister to complete her work. And to u, Azy. Sorry, because I force you to sleep. Not that I angry or what. But because you have work tomorrow. So you must need much energy to face tomorrow. And because, A.S.A.S =)

Last word from me, Good night everyone, smile always and remember to Allah.
Assalamualaikum, and byebye ...

  

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Awan Biru.

Nukilan ini tercipta khas buatmu, wahai sahabat. 

Sebiru hari ini, birunya bagai langit terang benderang

Sebiru hati kita, bersama di sini

Seindah hari ini, indahnya bak permadani taman surga

Seindah hati kita, walau kita kan terpisah

Bukankah hati kita telah lama menyatu

Dalam tali kisah persahabatan ilahi

Hati azy masih ada untuk alim seandainya saya tiada satu hari nanti.

Pegang erat tangan kita terakhir kalinya

Hapus air mata meski kita kan terpisah

Selamat jalan teman

Tetaplah berjuang

Semoga kita bertemu kembali

Kenang masa indah kita

Sebiru hari ini

Di sini kita mencipta memori bersama. 

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Engkau datang dalam hidupku, memberi warna indah dalam setiap langkahku. 

Takkan pernah ku lupa setiap kenangan yang terukir. 

Semuanya masih jelas dalam ingatanku, bahkan terukir indah dengan indah di hati. 

Tawa dan tangis selalu menwarnai hariku, namun dari sanalah aku tahu erti kehidupan. 

Kenangan itu, takkan mampu digantikan dengan apa jua pun. 

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Sincerely,

With love n peace.  

Girl Behind This Blog. 

12th Feb 2012 Epistle.

Peace be upon to all.

Dear Diary,
Im sorry because I didn't update you often like before.
Well, now im back!

Hehehe.. I have new story to tell you.
Im too excited to wrote. But i can't story more bout this epistle.
I need to get a rest and energy for tomorrow.

Today, 12th February 2012. (nice date, huh?)
I had been to Jugra, Banting  with children of Mr FRM.
For what?
My best friend invite me to join him and siblings in Paragliding.
What was that?
Paragliding?
I will tell you more on next epistle.

I need to take bath and rest for tomorrow.
Diary and YOU, pray for me so everything going just fine.

Till here.. Maasalamah and wassalam..

With Love and Peace, 
Girl Behind This Blog. 

Early Friendship Part 2 - Chemistry Class

Peace be upon to all...

Dear blog,
Its already 1.37 a.m. I can't sleep. 
Why? 
Errkkk .... urm... well..  I drink a can of nescafe ice. 
Im kinda worry about this morning.
This morning, I have follow up at hospital. 
Bla...bla...bla.. Who's care bout that? 

Hey writer ! I dont want to know that. Its your privacy.
Come on.. Continue your writing and story.. I cant wait anymore. ! 


Okay..okay.. Relax... 
I am writing right now... 
Lets the story begin... 


Errkkk.. Hold on... Where did I stop last part? 
Let me check first... Early friendship Part 1 .
Ouh.. okay..okay.. I remember now.. 

Without wasting my time and your time, lets the story begin. 


Each one of student introduced themself.
Now, its he turn's to introduced himself.
"My name is Muhammad Alim. Im form St. John Institution, Kuala Lumpur. For me, chemistry is much easier than physics. I do love Chemistry. " - (Wahh.. berlagaknya dia ni)
Tttteettt !! " Objection ! Chemistry is easier, huh? "
Then, Aliff's turn.

And now, my turn's.
"My name is Nur ...... Im from .... (ordinary day school). If he (alim) said that chemistry is much easier than physics, then im saying that Physics is much EASIER than Chemistry. I do hate Chemistry. Im sorry, teacher. Im too straight forward. But, that's the reality. "

After that, we were start arguing about that. He looks unsatisfied with me. (Well, boys never satisfy with girls. No wonder he studied at boys school. ) .
Situation uncontrolled.. Hehehe... -But thats what fun !
Teacher, start interfered.
" Okay.. okay both of you. Everyone has their own opinion bout chemistry subject and i guess you guys can be good partner. "
In my heart : " What? Teacher must be kidding... "  

Okay class..!! Lets start our class...
" Chapter 1 Chemistry Form 5 is Rate of Reaction." said Ms Nurul.
She start teaching us.. She explained and explained.
Now, lets do some exercise.
 Aww... Exercise? No way.. - Im kinda lazy to do chemistry's exercise because i don't understand it since form 4. 
" Okay class ! I want you to draw ur R.O.R graph on this graph paper." said Ms Nurul.
Im starting blurr.. then i said, " eehh.. tak cukup ruang la.. data pun banyak. macam mana nak lukis?" I looked at my friend, Tii. But she also blurr.. Both of us look at each other.

Tii said to me " Azy, why don't you ask that genius guy form SJI? "
In my heart, " Eh, malas nak tanya. Terlampau pandai pun susah juga. Baik tanya kawan dia. Nampak baik dan pandai walaupun dia ni pendiam. " 

" Excuse me, nak tanya boleh? "
Aliff gave responded !! Yayy...

"Apa dia ? " said Aliff.
" Nak tengok lukisan graf awak boleh ? "
Aliff gave me his graph paper. Then, i looked at it.
" Ehh.. Why is it blank ? " i asked.
" Entah, confuse nak buat macam mana. Cuba tanya alim. " he answered.

" Hey dak genius, tahu tak nak buat mana? i asked alim.

Do you know what did he answered?
Wanna know? Hehehe.. As usual, you have to wait untill next entry. This entry will be continue...
Be patient, k? Almost 4 a.m. I got to sleep.. I guess..

Entry will be continue in Early Friendship Part 3 entitled .... (PRIVATE & CONFIDENTIAL) hahaha.. wait  okay?

By the way, thank you for those reading this entry. Thank you for you patience too.. :D

Peace be upon to all. Have a nice day and maasalamah (goodbye).

With lots of love and peace, 
Girls Behind This Blog. 

Early Friendship Part 1

Peace be upon to all...

Dear blog,
almost 6 months 2 weeks 5 days i had been friend with him.
Well.. I admit it, its a wonderful friendship moment between me and him.
With bless from Allah and our parents, our friendship still going on till now (watching the clock) - 9.57a.m.

Hurm... Wait!
Let me recall myself, how I can be friends with him?
Yeah, he from St.John Institution, Kuala Lumpur (All boys- Cluster School). Meanwhile, Me?
I only studied at ordianry day school (Sekolah harian). :/
Who am I to be friends with him? Im not smart, not pretty, not a gud person. Im a sick teen.

Ok, lets the story begin...

Early year 2011, its a first time I attend tutorial class at I.S.
I still remember we were using Studio 5 - the smaller studio in centre coz of the number of student.
He always n always sit behind me with his friend, Aliff.

One day, on chemistry class.
He and his friend sit beside me. What a shock! But never mind, who's care right?
That day, we got new tutor name Ms Nurul Jannah because our old tutor got some problem and that's why changed it to new one. In that time, Ms Nurul asked all of us to introduced our-self.. " Class, my name is Nurul Jannah. Im your new tutor now. Now, I want you to introduced yourself. Your name, school's name and do you like chemistry or not." Hohoho.. I love that moment...

Okey, each one of student introduced themself.
Hurm.. When his turns, something happened! What is it?

Well .. if you want to know what happened next, you have to wait untill the next entry. Hehehe.. Curious huh? Im sorry.. but you have to wait till nest entry.. :P   Thank you for your patience..

Till we meet again in next entry. Early friendship Part 2...
Thanks for reading this entry.

Peace be upon to all.. Maasalamah (goodbye) and have a nice day!

With loves and peace, 
Girls Behind This Blog - PSMRC

Short Note

Peace be upon to all...

I'm a servant of Allah who try her best to wrote all the memories in my mind...
I try to find and gather all my strength to go through all these trials given by ALLAH.

Allah, please bless me..

Amin..